Argh

This week I've been eating like crazy and it shows! I really have to go back in to my better habits and get out of the house more.

  I've been doing all this social networking hoohah for my freelance makeup, what's a girl gotta do to get a like or a follow its like getting blood from a stone. I'm blaming my snacking on this and that's final!

I've so been wanting to start my YouTube channel for ages now but Rico is exhausting I never have a moment! He just started crawling and I never find him where I left him either; I'm sure there's some kind of baby equipment solution to this. 

Since Rico is on the go nonstop and I'm   busy with things I've been eating foods like cheese quesadillas, crisps, cereal bars and pizza. Not good at all but recognise a behaviour that is counterproductive and change it, eating pizza is definitely not the actions of a woman trying to lose weight.

So anyway it's a fresh week next week and hopefully I can report back with better news. IMATS is Saturday and words cannot describe how excited I am!

  Xxx

A long overdue weigh in

I have to say that the past few months have been hectic so the dieting has taken a back seat food is a huge part of my family life and we use it to celebrate absolutely everything and there has been a lot to celebrate! (Good thing though right?) Jason's birthday, my moms wedding, Father's Day my brother visiting from America and my grandmas first time meeting Rico etc all spells out FOOD.

My son is 6 months and 2 weeks now so he is eating solids but still having his breast milk. I think having him feed is a life saver when I've had a bad eating day the 300/400 calories it takes off is just the ticket when I can't say no to a chocolate bar.... and a brownie .... oh followed by a piece of chocolate Caramel cake with double cream. You get the picture.

so since I last weighed in I am 11 stone 4 pounds so a loss of 4 more pounds. People don't joke when they say it took 9 months to gain so it will take 9 to lose, the more time goes by the happier I am with my stretch marks and new "mummy body" I adore my son so much I regret nothing.

I think after I lose another stone and a half I will stop and just be grateful I can fit through the seating at Starbucks without my ass knocking over everyone's soya lattes and laptop computers.




I wish I could go to myself 6 months ago and say things will get smaller and tighter in the tummy region, because looking at my body after i had him was the biggest confidence killer and upset me quite a lot but I do admit I have always made a point to enjoy my time with Rico no matter what. So I don't ever have regrets about being to hung up on myself I forget the whole point of my body changing in the first place. Things do get better!.

P.s
I didn't look like a cow in a dress at my moms wedding either I think I actually looked pretty good. YAY.

Update

I fit into a size 14 finally! Just 2 more sizes to go until I will be back to my normal size. This week because of Passover I've literally been so hungry all week and being a vegetarian there isn't much I can eat except for vegetables fruits and the odd egg but oh well what's a girl to do. Breast feeding is Apparently going to start helping more because baby needs more fats, he can have all my fat for all I care I just want to eat a chocolate bar again with out feeling like I stole something lol.
Any way I now weigh 11 stone 8 lbs so a loss of 5lbs!!!! the lifestyle change is definitely working .
After the Easter weekend I'm going to buy my camera which has taken me 4 months to save for as a treat! So excited I could go for a run..../power walk.


Things that have helped with my hunger.

•Drinking water constantly or having a hot drink.
•keeping the weighing scales in the kitchen.
•knowing my mothers wedding is in June and not wanting to look like a cow in a dress.

Just a chat and the Victoria's Secret 10 min workout link.

Im gradually waking up earlier yesterday and today was 9:30 which i know to most people would be a lye in but hey its an improvement. I've been eating weetabix for breakfast...random fact.

It's been raining so yesterday instead of my usual walk i went to the shopping centre, plus i was looking for a bit of inspiration to do some different make up (post up on my other blog) and in my book it doesn't matter where you're walking as long as you are!

Jason and i did our sit ups both days I reached 80! he did his usual million, its so unfair how he can eat crisps and carbs before bed and still look like he's done an all day gym session.

Today I really wanted to go out walking but alas it's raining so were going to go shopping again not that I'm complaining, but I think a little work out in doors could be a good idea. My favourite one is this YouTube Victoria's Secret 10 minute work out http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=PWEdJRRndkQ

It's actually quite intense and perfect if you don't have a lot of time or you could repeat as much as you want I think I'm going to do it later before my sit-ups.

I want to get a few things from marks and spencer. They do this really yummy salmon and new potato salad, its so low in calories. M&S actually have a good range of salads.

I would love to start posting some "healthy option" recipes I love eating soup when I'm dieting its such an easy way to get vegetables in my diet and filling too.

Anyway I stink of fake tan so I'm getting in the shower before Jason gets back from the gym.

El, xx

A whole new kinda routine!

I weigh 11 stone 13 lbs today.

I have to be honest and say i am lazy, its been a very long time since i did any form of exercise i would never go to the gym in fact i had a membership for about 6 months and never even went to the induction, the shame of it i tell you!. 

Today is a different day though. I believe that if i want to lose my weight then i have to change my attitude and push myself to do things. Most good things in life start by doing this don't they?.

Simple changes

• I have started going for a walk with my son its free and good for wriggles to get some vitamin D into his skin.

• I eat breakfast every morning preferably cereal.

• Jason and i do sit ups together. 

• I only eat healthy snacks.

• I eat all three meals.

What my mother has always drilled into my head is that you should always take pride in your appearance. That translates into my head as " i'm not going to stop doing my make up and start going out in my house clothes with greasy hair just because i've gained weight and had a baby." I don't use my son as an excuse to walk around like a tramp i make damn sure my eyebrows get done and my hair gets cut. My belief is every woman has the right to those things, no one should have to suffer split ends and bushy eyebrows its 2013 for craps sake!

Any way lets see how these changes effect my weight loss, i guess you have to wake up before 12 to call it breakfast though... 

El, xxx

where do i even begin?

Let me start off with a little about myself and what brought me write this blog. 

I got pregnant and i ate ridiculous portions and completely the wrong foods, my thinking was "I'm getting fat anyway." so fast forward 10 months and 4 stone in weight and here i am. Nobody could have really prepared me for how different my body would be, the usual ways i diet just don't work. I did lose 10 lbs using a calorie controlled diet but i give that up for 2 days and it comes back with revenge.

So how the hell am i ever going to fit in my jeans again?

I think it all starts with accepting that i gained weight and this time its going to take more than starvation to put this one right, its going to have to be a consistent diet with a balance of the good old food pyramid. Also my son is 3 months+ now sleeping through the night and then some so the excuses to not go for a walk are almost non existent.

Tonight i was dipping a magnum ice cream into a slice of apple pie after my second portion of spaghetti complaining about how fat i am now. I look at old pictures of myself and obsess over "being me again" but why am i lacking so much motivation when i am clearly so unhappy with my body?. 

Im using this blog as my diary to share my journey with who ever wants to read or might be going through the same post baby body panic as me, i'm making a big change!.

El, xx